Now, I need some Fall / Autumn pictures. However, the season is not quite there yet.
I really like this one, as a lead in to the Halloween and Thanksgiving seasons. It is colorful but not over bearing. It looks like autumn not just a single holiday. It is also simple enough that one can add some color accented extras and dress it up a bit.
Their is NOTHING that upsets or bewilders me more about the human species than how we disrespect, gossip, back stab, lie and invade the privacy of another. What we do as human beings...to each other, is nauseatingly cruel, greedy and self serving. Yet some how, within this sick behavior, others seem to gain a great deal of self sadisfaction and self admiration from the pain of another.
Why would someone be out and out mean? Why would someone take it upon themselves to fabricate lies and tales of terror? Why do people brag about their insane ability to be hard, cruel and uncaring? Why is it some how a virtue to let the less fortunate go without? Why is personal success and self elevation gleaned from another's misfortune? Why do people love to flaunt their success in front of those who have less?
I do not think posting my opinions on my blog about issues I am concerned about is a bad thing.
I am sorry if people get upset. I just want people to get health care if they need it. I do not want people to lose insurance coverage only to go broke trying to pay for treatment the insurace companies will not pay for.
It is too bad. There is no way I can even think of health insurance for my family. I can not afford it... We have always worked very hard, So have many other people.
The old conspiracy theories have created a fearful few.
Ah, feel the fear from the fairy tales.
To think...death panels.
Just what is a death panel?
Where exactly are these death panels?
Apparently, the beloved public option is dead. Kaput!
Now...somebody has to clean up the poop.
Do not cry about it later when YOU can not pay your hospital bills. Your insurance has become unaffordable. Your insurance turns you down. Your insurance denies you coverage for a needed treatment. Your insurance premiums are just too high. You are dropped because you get seriously ill. Not to mention, you have been laid off from your $20.00/hr job and are now making $10.00/hr, and your wife has breast cancer. Without insurance. But hey! If you go bankrupt... Well, that's okay. Right?
Sometimes everything just cruises along. Sometimes out of no where, for no reason it becomes like a freight train hitting a wall, and you are the wall.
They people around you decide you are vulnerable and that perhaps you judgement on certain things are bad. You look around and say to yourself, "What has changed"? You are not a mind reader.
God, please.... If there IS a lesson you are trying to teach me, let me learn it fast.
Peoples main complaints are "You are too nice". This is a complaint I hearing often. Also, "Why didn't you do...." Because it never mattered before. All the sudden things are different?
Where are the lines drawn? Maybe I am too Aspie to do certain things effectively that I would like to do. Maybe there IS a point where one must say, "I am too passive" or "I need to do a job with clear lines drawn". "Maybe I am too compassionate". "Maybe I care too much about what other people think". "Maybe I REALLY AM TOO NICE".
How? How, does a person like myself, become able to judge accurately a totally subjective situation? How, does a person like myself, know when a "line" has been crossed... when it has never been acceptable to you in the first place? How does a person like myself develop a method for dealing with mixed messages. Because I really do not know, how a person, like myself changes, from being "too nice"? When is it a flaw in the persons personality?
On the other side of the coin, When is a person too mean or too harsh?
Personalities are so complex. What is acceptable one day, is not accepted the next day.
Too me... a person is mean or a person is nice. They are telling the truth, or they are lieing. It is really pretty cut and dry.
More and more, I really believe NT persons are expecting the impossible. Where is the clear definition? How do you know when enough is enough? How, can a person "color in the lines" when there are no lines... How does a person just figure that out on their own? How do you know?
Sometimes I really want to turn tail and run from stronger personalities, cower. Sometimes I have been told to be gentler, not so harsh... Only to turn around and be told...in the same circumstance, mind you... You are not being forceful enough or harsh enough.
Maybe I should just go back to being a security officer. Pretty cut and dry. I did it for two and a half years.
I am vividly realizing just how inept I am at dealing with people. I am, for the first time, dreading work today.
I am too nice and care too much about what other people think. I am looking for another job ASAP. Try to find one better suited to my "personality"... What ever that is.